I wish I could see one glimpse of yours.
Once again, I would see you from a distance.
Not lay a finger on you, nor breath close to you,
Nor would I touch your hands, cross my fingers with you,
Entangle you with me,
Because, I know distance is the best gift for you that I can present,
A curse to me and a blessing to you is this thousand crores of distance,
I wish I could keep you,
As you are locked in the chambers of my heart,
I wish…………………
……………………………………………..!
You are a distant comet to me,
A dusty rusty mist that I cannot catch or see,
You are so far away.
Do I always chase the unavailable and the unattainable?
Do I idealize love?
Exaggerate?
You are now an illusion to me,
but once you were my reality
that was shattered with the cruelty of fate,
Our fatalistic lives,
I wish I could revert back to the golden times and hold you tight.
Kiss you harder,
Keep your moon face resting in the
palms of my hands.
I wish you were in the lines of my fate.
I wish you were my destination.
I am tired wandering lonely.
My life is stuck in you like a
stopped watch on my wrist!
Oh, I did not fall in love in the blink of eye,
I fell in love slowly and gradually in a decade,
Not by staying with you but by
staying far away from you,
An endless- limitless,
platonic, idealistic love I have for you,
Because, within all these years I finally understood your intents,
I fell in love with your sincerity again.
All these broken experiences
have shown me the gem you are
that I won’t get again!
I lost you.
I lost you.
I lost you.
My sighs breathe your name!
You are not my reward but sickness,
I am sick,
A dead person blindly in love
hopelessly…mercilessly … eternally!
I am sick,
There is no remedy except
your arrival permanently to me,
I am sick,
You break my rythm and order in daily life.
One glance of you after a decade is enough to destroy me,
Crumble my hardly built fort and fortitude,
Grounded on solid foundations.
©® Farheen Akter Bhuian Nancy
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