You were necessary for me to evolve,

You showed me what I thought love was not love actually  but compromise and a habitual prolongation,

You proved me wrong- my perception of love is shattered,

Yes, you were not meant to stay but necessary for my evolution.

You were necessary for me to evolve,

Staying with you,

I learnt the innate necessity for space and individualism

everytime when you crushed my pride, ego and self,

I learnt how important it is to be self-authorized

and self-sufficient before becoming someone else’s love interest,

I was a love object to you nothing else,

You were a habit to me nothing to chase or brag!

You were necessary for me to evolve,

Because, you showed me how important it is to love yourself before seeking someone else’s love,

You showed me the lacking I have within myself that always wanted to love others,

I was self-compromising,later in self-defence,

I would not think about myself once-

Forgot all the cliches- class, interpretations, status, looks, quality and wealth inequality we had,

But, after all these differences I loved you,

You conspired constantly to get my love,

In the process, you damaged whatever was built beautiful,

You pushed me to believe in myself and hence,

I become my own confidante,

But, if everyone becomes so self-sufficient then what is the need for a mutually engaging love?!

Is selfhood kind of a self-obsession?!

Becoming self-conscious and a revisionist is the natural process of evolving and evolution.

I evolved for better or worse and there is no single corner for you to stay,

I have grown into a green leaf,

No space for insects and worms anymore.

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2023, Rokeya Hall.