Champions don’t sway under any emotional burdens.

I don’t want to explore anything novel anymore,

I want to cuddle the familiar,

Smell the fragrance of the familiarity,

That old dewy smell,

Adore the innocence in the smile,

In the morning sunshine.

I don’t want to unveil any hidden curtains,

My soul is tired of exploring the unknown,

I want my known world to return!

The world I was introduced to!

The comforting zone, 

The ease of the habituated comfort 

outweighs the thrill of the new,

Anything new means risk,

My soul can’t take anymore risks,

I don’t want to run away,

I wanna stay,

Stay in your arms,

Hold you tight,

That familiarity haunts me, 

Gives me nightmares,

I don’t want to lose you,

But, each time I lose you in the cruelty of time!

I am a champion in worldly affairs but a loser in love!

A protagonist in daily life,

 But a jew bereaving my heaven and safe haven_ my lost lands,

I know nobody will love me like you did,

I know I lost it forever and my grief will grow into branches and chains,

I know there’s no end to this regret,

I am falling into despair and doubts,

Only miracles can save me from the pits of hell!

Otherwise, I would prefer to die in loneliness, 

Longing for an adaptation, 

A holy version of you in someone else!

One life will be perhaps spent in giving kaffara and sadaqah in your name! 

©® Farheen Akter Bhuian Nancy 

Time-Frame: 12.14.25, 10.34 am, MIST.