Discernment

I wanted to uncover your intentions,

And, sense your vulnerabilities under your skin,

I wanted to read your unconscious and your sublimity,

I wanted to see how authentic you are!

But, you failed me!

I wanted to feel comfort, but,

You gave me disturbing discomfort and distrust,

I wanted to measure your depth of the psyche,

And, I saw there’s none!

Just a kid in an adult physique,

Who doesn’t know how to do chores!

I wanted to see what you have learnt from life and the previous relationships,

I saw you have never been in touch with love and the fine arts of it!

I saw an immature person in disguise of a vast vessel,

I found you not truthful and could sense ulterior motives- dishonesty!

I wanted to dive deep into your soul,

But, I see that’s empty.

I wanted to heal you,

But, I see you are proud unhealed.

I wanted to see the scars in the stars,

But, I see looming darkness surrounds you

And, there’s nothing lightening!

I wanted to touch your soul, hear It’s voice,

I felt It’s empty and full of pride.

So, I say you good bye.

A bye for longings and belongingness,

A concrete contract without any soul ties will be signed.

Well, clarity is the only currency I accept.

Time Frame: 8.32 pm, Mirpur Cantonment.

Incapable

Now you know, The permanent damage that you’ve done. They call it survival, But, I named it silence. A disease

Numbness Towards The Collective

The sadness in my eyes has numbed the empathy towards the pain of the collective. I no longer read the

Contempt for the Culture that Shaped You

In knowing you, little by little, I cannot deny, That the flaw was not in your nature but in the

Asymmetrical relationship with the cockroach

The cockroach did not know that evolution never taught humans to befriend it, And, It didn’t learn to hide. It

Blue Whale

There was an ocean within me once, It was deep,blue,wide. In that deep blue ocean- Tides shone so bright, Faith

No bond lasts long

Why don’t you believe in people anymore?! – Cause, I don’t want anyone to exploit my reason. How’s that like?!

Farheen Akter Bhuian