I wanted to uncover your intentions, 

And, sense your vulnerabilities under your skin, 

I wanted to read your unconscious and your sublimity, 

I wanted to see how authentic you are! 

But, you failed me! 

I wanted to feel comfort, but, 

You gave me disturbing discomfort and distrust, 

I wanted to measure your depth of the psyche, 

And, I saw there’s none! 

Just a kid in an adult physique, 

Who doesn’t know how to do chores! 

I wanted to see what you have learnt from life and the previous relationships, 

I saw you have never been in touch with love and the fine arts of it! 

I saw an immature person in disguise of a vast vessel, 

I found you not truthful and could sense ulterior motives- dishonesty! 

I wanted to dive deep into your soul,

But, I see that’s empty.

I wanted to heal you, 

But, I see you are proud unhealed. 

I wanted to see the scars in the stars, 

But, I see looming darkness surrounds you 

And, there’s nothing lightening! 

I wanted to touch your soul, hear It’s voice, 

I felt It’s empty and full of pride. 

So, I say you good bye.

A bye for longings and belongingness, 

A concrete contract without any soul ties will be signed. 

Well, clarity is the only currency I accept. 

©® Farheen Akter Bhuian Nancy 

Time Frame: 8.32 pm, Mirpur Cantonment.