Timeloop is same for the Alzheimer’s patient,
As if they’ve lived the entire life in a second,
Everything seems new,
Everything seems present, equal, same,
Past, present, future-all tangled up.
No memories stored,
No memories to be remembered.
Time plays the same role in the person’s life-
On and on again, repeatedly-
None to remind who is who,
What to do and what’s coming next,
No chasing, no returning back to,
No succession, no regressions,
No regrets, no pain,
No assumptions, no worries,
No depressive attacks.
No dreams, no fulfillments,
Most importantly no love to hold on and to move on with,
No memories beget.
Everyone and everything is moving so fast,
Time is as if a running horse,
But, that person is still waiting to remember something s/he has surpassed.
Time is as if stuck –
S/he is stuck in the loop,
A neverending loop of living and forgetting,
Past, present, future- all entangled in a loop of letting go and trying to hold on,
What a bold move by an Alzheimer’s patient,
Patiently, s/he looks at you- knowing s/he will forget you soon.
The sunsets are the same,
Set in her life- a dying sun decaying light,
Mourning day- fading away,
Forgetting to rise again,
Forgetting that it once used to lit away-
So bright and elegant,
It used to rise with the chirping birds,
Singing lullabies to the rats and insects sleeping in the cave,
It is now dying-
Decaying It’s light only to remember the day!
©® Farheen Bhuiyan Nancy,
Time Frame: 1.47 pm, Mirpur Cantonment.