A decade went lamenting for you,

A decade spent ranting about you,

A series of decade has gone by blaming you. 

Now I look inwards, 

After three century living all by myself- self partnered, 

I have learnt that you are not to be accused of not me loving myself enough.

It was because I didn’t accept myself and my surrounding could you make me feel the dearth of dignity……

Now the wings of serenity wraps around me.

Because, this time I know nobody can make me feel that way anymore- vulnerable, helpless, alone despite having it all. 

This time I know It’s not my lack of possessions but lack of your integrity and lack of my dignity that we were binded together for so long….

Now I have chosen myself….

My dignity uproars at the city halls…

It was never a war of belonging… 

It is a war of dignity and still after  thousands of decades I will chose dignity over compromising. 

Because, you have taught me well, that I can live without you even outgrew all the needs of being together.

You have taught me how to begin from the scratch,

I have been a zero and the infinity all at once when I chose dignity of mine. 

©® Farheen Akter Bhuian Nancy 

Time Frame: 2.01 AM, Chittagong, Home. 

19/03/26