I deserve to suffer,

Suffer eternally.

Burn in the hellfire and never resurrect.

I deserve to be dismembered,

Bone by bone,

Skin by skin,

Teeth by teeth,

I shall be turnished.

Piece by piece, 

Time to time,

From head to toe,

I shall be skinned.

Uprooted and deshaveled in the beginning.

Dear NZ, once you asked me,

How does your love end so quickly?

Because, from deep inside I am hollowed,

Raised with insecurities.

And, lived with trials of torments.

The love I did not get at the prime could not be filled with your immense intensity.

So, I fled.

 I devalued what I had!

I shall be dethroned from the pedestal of ego.

The alter ego that I have built.

But, who is to be blamed?

My bucket of love was empty from within, from the beginning.

It was not up to you to fill up.

Now, I take the responsibility.

So, I remain unattached, unfazed, frozen when it comes to the question of love and bonding.

 I cannot destroy people anymore.

I have destroyed both you and me in the wake of awakening.

I cannot exploit other nor do I want to be exploited. 

All reasons are unreasoned, 

If only conscious love appeared from depth. 

From both sides, 

When two banks merged as one to prevent disruption.

Then, the flow of ebb and tide falls in place, 

The river freely assimilates. 

The ocean calls her to his arms for the greater good, for eternity, with dignity, 

The unfazed moon witnesses their coalescence, 

The crescent begins from joy, 

The earth shivers with pleasure and the clouds dance in rain. 

They all celebrate the unification of two souls who were meant to be together.

Two conscious souls who merge from consciousness through enlightenment. 

Raises the frequency of thoughts,

Of consciousness from within towards outer world.

Oh, manifesting the holy union!

©® Farheen Akter Bhuian Nancy 

Time stamp: 1.10 pm, T-4