Ya Rab deconstructs beautifully.
Look at his patterns,
Can you understand his psychology?!
See the grass fields so green,
Before there were any signs of greens,
It was ploughed deep.
The broken moist field gives genesis to grass gleans and calls the grass finch!
Look at the horizons,
Before rain there were heavy clouds soaking some weight from earth;
Then returned her some ease.
Absolute purity.
See the seeds,
Before growing into a seedling it was grounded into dark haven,
It had to cut through itself to grow.
What an evolution!
Don’t you see the trees and chirping birds and moths and caterpillars?!
They have all gone through brokenness and evolved.
Your Rab breaks you to build up,
Your Rab deconstructs before constructing,
And, then reconstructs for infinite times.
He has seen the infinity, you haven’t.
He is the infinity, you are liminal.
Tell me, which of the favors are you not going to acknowledge?
Or, deny any of these?!
Denial for your own survival?! Growth?!
Look at you, how much have you evolved,
How much deconstruction and reconstruction is performed on you-
Infinite times!
Deeply in gratitude I immersed-
And, I emerge.
I reappear.
I co-create.
Deeply in gratitude I am reminded of the bliss
I have indulged in engaging the process of being and becoming-
The creation,
The joy of believing and finding the patterns,
The designs, the cosmic compassion,
Deeply grateful I am for the consequences.
The things God let me see and feel,
It strengthens my belief.
I am a believer and I strongly believe.
Believe in his divine protection and deconstruction,
Believe that he is above all binaries and nominations,
I got that gut feeling- the pre-nomination.
Strongly I believe in the ‘Divine Timing’,
The fatal collision.
The genesis is the beginning of all creations.
The embryo is an art,
Pure art articulated by God.
I stand firm in my faith-
He is the all knower.
The listener.
I believe in his power of construction and deconstruction.
I believe in his patterns.
Not a psychic, not a medium,
A normal human- I felt him in the most humanely way possible.
In sins and abominations,
In guilt and degradations,
In retaliations and repudiations,
In trials and rejections.
In cycles and cognitions,
I recognize the inherited light within-
From where I am created,
Born to elevate and resonate on the same level-
Twice!
I came into the earth to recognize the forgotten
who was meant to stay unforgettable through deconstruction.
My deconstructed self knows him better.
Loves him better.
Cherishes and contains him better.
It is getting stronger,
The more alone I am the more I can resonate and relate with the lonely Rab,
Practicing and understanding my deen has become my strength and power,
Immersed into deen I found the meaning in my griefs.
Nope, I didn’t overcome any of it.
I just have a better idea of it and that’s enough.
Understanding any phenomenon becomes a phenomenal evolution.
I revolted and won in the revolution.
Revolution of mind, body, soul and structure..
I believe in the transcending,
In the transmural power of my Rab.
He is the great alchemist I’ve ever known.
The change of hearts come from the above,
The ‘Phenomenal’,
The change of minds too occur in his directions,
Who are we but liminal beings unconsciously following his will and instructions.
We become limitless when we understand our liminality, what a complex!
The alchemy within you is calling your name,
Your name is also inscribed somewhere,
Somewhere in between where your eyes don’t meet,
Somewhere underneath where your mind don’t travel and unravel.
Let that spark be ignited,
The blaze is sprinkling neurons into your brain wires- in your body system.
Your body is the holy grail- drink from it.
But, before that surrender-
Surrender in the light of the ‘Supreme’,
You are just a forgotten shadow of that light wandering in this realm.
©® Farheen Akter Bhuian (Nancy)
Time Frame: 1.29 PM, Mirpur Cantonment.
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