It’s all in my head and I am tired of these psychological warfares,
You ain’t existent in my life but yet you stay 24/7 in my head,
I imagine scenarios that’s never going to happen,
Nor do you will chase me so do I.
Is there any full-stop of this day dreaming and utopias?!
You are just an illusion that I imagine day and night!
You block my ways and interrupt my healing,
I was fine alone- atoned!
I was fine in a cage where I locked myself!
I was an obedient prisoner there!
But, why do you need to screw me by making me feel your racing heartbeat?!
Your heartbeats say they belong to me!
You still love me!
A decade after it will still beat for me!
I want to end this endless psychological warfare,
You are everywhere yet nowhere,
I search for you in every person I meet,
I look for the same attributes,
You should go away from my mind and heart,
But, how do I ward off these sentiments
when only you touched my soul?!
You were one of a kind!
Kind, dignified and devoted.
How do I forget your devotion?!
The small garden that you decorated for me on 2015? Now, It’s 2025!
How can I forget how you climbed the mountain for me?!
Decorated it with flowers,
17th roses for my 17th birthday,
Oh, a Queen I was in your paradise!
Will you forget me?!
Say you’ll remember me!
My eyes, my lips, and my skin.
Say you’ll remember me,
My mind, my soul and my words,
Say you’ll be what I wanted you to be!
A rising star in the sky that one day I shall meet!
Petals of white wood rose
you are in my sulked yard!
See you hands in hand
in the next life-time!
©® Farheen Akter Bhuian Nancy
Time Frame: 12.5.25, 6.23 pm, Tagar, MIST